Epic Olivia Dunham Speeches | 04/???

“I couldn’t put it into words then, but I felt responsible. I wanted so much to be a mother but I just didn’t think that I was programmed that way. That I was destined for something else. Ever since I was a kid, since the Cortexiphan Trials, I just… I was at odds. And so how could I have this incredible little girl? So when we lost her I felt like that was my punishment. My punishment for being too conflicted to appreciate her when we had her. And that day, at the restaurant, I knew that I had to go back to New York, because I didn’t want to find what I knew we were going to find. I just- I just believed so strongly that she was dead, and I didn’t wanna see it.”